Hey pple...i dunno how many of u are still reading my blog over here... haven't been updating my blog here cos i couldn't really get into the webbie somtimes...so u can catch me at another blog k? http://xception.blogspot.com..... drop me a msg there when you're free! =)

I think i shld write my blog now since i can log in....in case 5 mins later, the server is down again. I feel so weird. Seems like no one else can log on to zorpia anymore. I can't see the updated journals by huiling and my shifu has been complaining that he's getting irritated with the server. I think he's gonna move his blog somewhere else...

Seng told me she went shopping the whole day with her sis and earned for herself a bag! How i wished i had older siblings who are financially independent. Maybe i shld wish for myself to find a sugar daddy instead, haha. Hmmm, how many times have we been wishing for this, all my single ger frens, haha. Soon soon, don't worry.

My brother got his first letter regarding the ever honourable national service....he seems so happy for the whole day. I thot he was so weird, to be happy over going to NS. But i think i know why. That means he's gonna stop studying, stop doing something that he hated ever since K1. I knew this long ago. Ever since when i was in pri 3 and him in pri 1. I think all his teachers rem me, cos i'm always being asked to see them...and i've heard all sorts of things they say bout him.
"He talks too much...he simply can't make it, he's just not cut out for study...he's hopeless" I was too young then. Too young that i actually allow them to say all these things to me. Who were they to say someone's hopeless? Yes, he hates studying and he's lazy but that doesn't mean he's hopeless. Frens and relatives asked us wad he's doing and we say he's in ite...there's nthg to avoid, nthg to be ashamed of. At least, he always seems happier than i do. He's never complained about tests and exams. I've never seen him stayin up late to study. Never. I envy sometimes. No need to study and always make it thru to the next level, haha. He has his goals too...although it may not be very ambitious, but whenever he talks bout it, he looks so happy. He just wanna sell ice-cream and ba gua...really. Initially, i laughed at him, but i realised that his ideas may sound simple but they aren't easy. At least he knows what he wants.

Alright, my shifu is going to have his first driving lesson tmr and he sounded so excited over msn. And he went to sleep so early... i mean compared to other nights. I hope he doesn't suan the instructor too much, not everyone has my patience.

Stayed at home the whole day. Woke up late, watched tv, had lunch at 3pm and decided to skip dinner. Nothing new. Marcus asked me to write my blog earlier on but i asked him to go sleep. Becos i know that by the time i start writing, he'll be in his dreams...and so will be piggy andreas.

Talked to quite a number of pple online today. It can be quite tiring at times. Using different moods for different pple. Giving advices in one window, crapping in another, suanning in another and tellin your problems in another. Hmmm, but i guess that's just part of our lives huh, wearing different masks in front of different pple.

I feel bad. Sorry that you are always listening to my problems. Maybe it's time you ask me to stop. It seems like i'm always on the receiving end of our friendship. I'm so not used to it? I know it's been more than once that you said it's ok. I'll be here, to listen, whenever. I'm kinda upset for the both of us. For 2 sadists who no longer believed in "forever". I guess we've grown up. Too grown up that pple don't see the things we do.

I wished i believe in forever and make you a believer too, but i can't. I wished someone can grant me a new heart. The one i'm having is running out of space, soon. I wished i had a better filter in my brain, to filter away all the unnecessary impurities. I wished none of you will ever see me fall. Nope, not yet, it's too early for a rest. So, i won't fall.